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whenever aku TERTENGOK above picture at his profile , seeing both their smile , i always wanna go far .
tak sampai hati aku tengok gare² kehadiran anak aku di muke bumi ni , cinta dorang tergendalai .
like eu know , his never there for me sampai sanggup tinggal kan aku demi pompan tuh & now that baby is born , die tinggal kan pompan tuh pulak .
i know how it feels .
i really do .
sakit nye lebih sakit dari kene koyok .
even now honestly my mother always nag at me , asking me to be far from him .
my mother always tell me , " dulu die tinggal kan kakak & baby pasal pompan lain . abe sekarang die nak tinggalkan pompan tuh pulak setakat pasal ade baby . "
i dont know why in the 1st place they do that without thinking far .
see now how things really messed up .
only then i know the smile on his face when his with me were all FAKE .
senang² die tinggal kan aku demi pompan lain .
sekarang senang² dorang putus .
senang² an choose this path back .
senang² totot date with another guy .
sumpah aku tak paham .
aku yang dari dulu lagi single sejak kene tinggal sampai sekarang hati aku belum sembuh .
i dont know how this 2 hearts cure so fast sampai boleh ganti orang lain dalam hati dorang .
but touching is , few days before he go , he share photo with me our old pictures .
i was super damn shocked !
like he still keep all our photos when i already dont have mine .
picture above was 1 of them but edited of course by pinky wawa .
yes , whenever i looked at both their pictures at his profile , in & out of me say leave .
whenever i looked at my daughter , i always tell myself to give him a chance & stay .
but last night my ex , nizam adviced me , " uatpe if u nikah ngn die 4 daughter sake den u urself not hapy rite " .
yes true to what he said .
bukan hati aku tanak .
aku nak bagi die peluang .
everybody tend to make mistake .
everybody deserve chances .
aku sendiri bukan lah baik mane pun tapi i always back off whenever teringat mase silam for every dids he did to me .
after what i've been thru up & down all alone , saving my daughter from everyone who wants her dead / abortion .
aku sorang !
aku sorang yang merane selame ni takde orang taw .
hari raye pun aku tak sambut , die senang lenang beraye dengan totot .
sedih nye aku , berkecai nye hati aku , tak dorang taw .
enough said .
cukup lah airmate aku berlinang selame ni .
saturday mummy came with tas .
pictures above are all the gifts from mummy .
thanks so much mummy .
appreciate it alot .
really , alot .
my 1st glance on the pacifier really make me wanna cry .
i ♥ mama , papa is the best .
if only we're together as 1 happy family .
like mummy mention to my parents , next year nak panggil orang datang .
insya'allah , law tuhan izin kan .
farhan dad sms me asking me to visit him tomorrow .
he requested me to visit him but . . . .
aku tengah kotor & nak pegi pulak daerah sane .
this evening my ex nizam & his friend coming over to visit baby .
no worries .
visit baby , not me .
haha !
blog again soon .
i wanna feed my daughter .
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