23.9.10 @ [
11:11 AM]
нαиγα тυнαи вϊѕα мзмϊѕαнкαи кϊтα
aww ~
cant sleep peacefully last night .
pain here & there especially tummy .
cause of it is from baby movement .
each time i turn here & there , i always feel her moving .
doesnt she know how to sleep ?
i tried my best to change my routine to sleep at night like a normal human but not angel .
she'll be quiet during day time & active at night onwards till morning .
early this morning i woke up to pee thats around 7+ , she havent sleep & still moving here & there .
gosh baby ~
feel like smacking eu but lucky ur love of my life .
mum been asking me again what i want for her future .
am i going to put his name at the back of my daughter's name .
then i tell myself yes i want her to bring his name but ICA stuff need him to be there too & thats the issue that i dont wanna face .
at first yes i dont want her to bring his name but after i think & think , i have to think about her future too .
i cant think of my own , i have to think of her future too .
haiz ~
if only they allow me to put his name at the back of my daughter's name without him being there then i'll do it but if they insist of needing him to be there then just forget about it .
in another way , if really no choice of putting binte abdullah then i was thinking instead of putting mine as mother's particular , i would like to give my aunt & uncle as her guardian .
so when she grow up , can just say die anak angkat & too bad lah i cant declare that im her blood mother .
macam kesian kan if she know die anak luar nikah .
law name die ade name bapak die at least i can explain to her , father left us both when she's still in my womb .
tsk ~
ni lah susah law dapat lelaki yang taw buat anak tapi tak taw tanggong anak .
apasal ntah padehal for the 1st 6months , him , me & princess are doing good .
tetibe je start ignoring me & rupe nye pasal dah busy ade nonok lain .
he take things easy .
i've been thinking too much , worst ALONE .
been thinking whats good for her future .
ni aku bobal pasal nyawe yang akan ade untuk bertahun sey .
bukan bobal pasal bende 3 , 4 years nye sey .
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