13.8.10 @ [
12:58 PM]
нαиγα тυнαи вϊѕα мзмϊѕαнкαи кϊтα
yeah i know i just blogged few minutes ago .
actually again im feeling down .
so here i am to let go of all my sadness .
coz this is the only place i can let it all out .
this diary of mine has been with me for years .
i admit i have been behaving as if i dont love him anymore , i talk to men here & there just to forget him actually but still its him i see in my eyes .
may i know why ?
& also can i know how to forget someone we love ?
especially the 1 who is really connected to us like im having a daughter of his & for sure i'll see my daughter's face which resembles him .
how do i do that ?
yes i dont have the feelings to be with him already .
my heart is all already broken into pieces & i dont wish to put it back to 1 shape .
i just dont understand why is the love deep in my heart is still there for him ?
ni lah aku .
aku dah pesan die aku nye orang law sayang means betul-betul sayang .
but then at last he himself played me out .
now i myself stuck like this not knowing what to do .
he just leave me & our daughter like that .
sedih kan ditinggalkan orang yang kite cintai waktu hamil .
puase gini , worst malam raya is my birthday .
both raya & my birthday i wont be celebrating .
all coz of this 1 lil heart beating in my womb .
hopefully she doesnt feel sad whenever im sad .
i never wanna see my angel sad .
i never wanna make my angel sad .
ok lets try talking about angel so i can forget about the pain im facing right now coz angel always make me happy too whenever im down .
angel has been moving alot lately .
aunty say if more than 10 moves each day means baby active .
then angel must be more than active coz morning before i close my eyes for sleep , she has been moving more than 10 times .
she moves alot more than she kicks .
till my pelvis is always in pain whenever i stand up .
angel !
eu getting bigger already uh ?
dont put on too much weight hoh or eu'll be a fat baby .
when ur a fat baby , mama for sure wont be able to carry eu so much coz mama not so strong sayang .
hmm . .
mama still havent got eu a name .
think think think .
ok now i feel better .
i may go to bed now .
sweet dreams .
** just ignore this crazy woman **
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