28.7.10 @ [
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pagi ni , my bad dream wake me up .
my bad dream was i saw farhan's relationship status in fb with someone else .
ya allah .
dont have to give me such dreams just to wake me up from sleep .
this days sometimes i feel strong to move on life without him , sometimes i feel regret knowing him , sometimes i keep telling myself never regret with things that made me happy once .
Ann ;
ur so true about this .
hati kite je berkate kite kuat tapi sebenarnye tidak .
but whatever it is , with or without him , baby & i still have to move on with our lives .
but seriously from the bottom of my heart , i miss being together just the 3 of us especially now can feel baby kicking & moving .
am sure his happy & excited if baby's own father get to feel this but everything went wrong .
so wrong .
well so heres a re-cap on whats happening to my life this past few days .
sunday around 730am i already woke up & getting myself ready to go jb .
i reached home on sunday midnight .
imagine that spending more then 12 hours at jb .
at first we went kedai kerete .
actually intention to upgrade the alarm system .
then sekali menamba taruk speaker pulak .
waduh .
from 11+am till 530pm we're there lazying around doing nothing .
imagine that .
then we went to angsana , maslee & then to giant to shop .
then to pasar malam .
last stop was singgah selalu , danga bay .
as usual had my longan drink & pineapple fried rice as my supper .
what a big 1 .
then off home .
at woodlands checkpoint green channel saw my abang & i was waving from inside .
he look so blur & keep asking his friends who is that .
haha .
then i message him thru fb .
ape lah abang tak nampak sape .
then monday evening went to masjid sultan for nisbu sa'aban .
i didnt know that people do fast on this day but sadly i didnt coz i dont know i can fast .
well next year then .
after solat magrib , we recite yasin 3 times .
each yasin has a niat for us to doa & mintak pade tuhan .
then isyak & tahlil for arwah .
imagine imam reading 3000 names for tahlil .
wow !
brilliant isnt it ?
since i have baby in my life , alhamdullillah my life changed .
im getting closer to allah .
i pray day & night .
after praying i will read doa & ask for things which i hope he hear me .
while praying magrib all the way till tahlil , my eyes are full with tears .
such a long time , i never feel & be this way .
for so long i didnt really step in mosque & really pray like other muslimah did .
i was crying while praying .
god !
hopefully i will stay put like this even after giving birth or even 10 years down the road .
ni also pagi-pagi , nizam takde keje .
pagi-pagi dah msn me .
tell me not to be sad & smile .
nizam , nizam .
hopefully eu'll be faithful waiting for my dearest BFF to come out from CWP .
she's lucky to have eu .
ingat nizam .
after deliver , bring baby & me to visit her ok ?
3rd august ni kaw visit die lagi kan dengan mak ?
send my warmest regards to her .
takmo lupe pelok cium aku pade die .
to my babes like alya , efa , elle , qariessa , ann , caca , winie & those names not mention , am so sorry .
thanks ladies for always being there for me whenever im down & pour with raindrops .
** winK **
now i realise & know who are my true friends .
1 day i make sure all of us will have our day together with our cutie babies for those who have kids .
maybe we should go to the beach & have our small picnic , have our dinner somewhere nice or maybe also hitting the club dancefloor .
:)
lagipun dah lame jugak aku tak jumpe korang .
korang pun kalaw ade pape masalah share gan aku jugak lah k .
takmo lah problem aku korang nasihat then aku tak tolong korang with korang nye problem pulak .
aku pun nak gontong royong .
hehe .
love eu chicas .
ouh ya .
monday morning i had a big quarrel with my mum .
she keeps on mentioning farhan's name since the day i got back home .
monday morning , i really gave up when all this while , i keep telling myself sabar .
this time really ilang sabar .
for once i shouted at her to stop talking or even mention his name .
again i shout at her , eu should support me from the back to forget him .
not mentioning his name everyday so stop talking about him .
wah ~
pastu uwa kene pekik balik lah sama mama uwa .
she say " ey mane boleh kaw lupe kan farhan . die tuh ayah pade anak kaw . mane boleh kaw lupe kan die . misalan kate anak kaw ade sakit tulang som-som & tulang som-som kaw takle derme kan anak kaw , ayah die which is farhan nye tulang som-som jugak yang anak kaw perlu . "
haiz mak aku ni .
sape suruh fikir sampai ke situ .
orang kalaw boleh nak yang terbaik untuk baby ni mama .
haiyo ~
pening ouh pale wa pikir kan semua ni .
he ever told me , his not gonna leave me .
thats the last message i got from him .
well papa , if ur reading this .
fine , i'll wait for eu to change .
i believe people do change maybe not today but 1 fine day .
our child & i will wait for eu to come back but as a man & a father ok ?
but if 1 day eu decided to go with another woman , moving on with ur life with someone new , please do tell me so i wont be waiting for eu to come back in our life .
earlier this morning , mama got back home from dont know where .
she bought me again as usual soya bean & roti prata .
ok now im feeling hungry .
guess what mother bought .
she bought baby's romper but i dont think it will fit my newborn mother .
thats too big .
i even change the colour tone of the pic so eu all wont know the gender of my baby .
sorry ya .
coz i made a promise to baby's father .
he know 1st then others .
so friends , sorry .
argg ~
ni ifah baru message me ask girl or boy .
sorry babe , i cant answer to ur Q .
farhan have to know 1st then kawan-kawan boleh taw ok .
for now , im gonna take my breakfast with my sayang .
foods coming baby !
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