MY LIFE , MY STORIES

26.6.09 @ [12:04 AM]

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back from toilet . actually not yet done with my lil diary . now i can blog with ease .

to my one & only manager , mr leon ! happy birthday ! thanks for being the best manager i ever had . eu helped me a lot with work . cant forget im the first person eu gave the molten chocolate cake for free & followed by the rest . thanks once again . i'll never forgot ur kindness towards us . dont get too stress with work . eu must take good care of ur health too . just hope for the best to chili's . present for eu , tomorrow ! chilihead do have suprise for eu .

next stop , abang ! altought eu left me all by myself , ur touch , ur tenderness , ur voice , ur laughter , ur nose is fresh in me . nothing could wash away those memories . im always by myself & all i have now is my ladies & family . hope eu wont forget me like how i dont forget eu . we love each other till today but my attitude towards eu seperate us apart . just hope eu got the best woman in the universe coz eu deserve it . about me promising tattooing ur name , yeah ! still thinking on where should i do it . eu wont be erased in me . i do love eu & will always do abang . hawa mintak maaf atas segala dosa hawa terhadap abang . as i promise eu , ur the last person i love & yes , ur still the last person whom i love & i still do love eu . this decision of urs really make me hate to be in love again . infect , make me hate to get close with guys . now i just feel i want to get close to only girls . i just miss & love eu abang .

to boy , altough we had a son , i just feel so sad that eu came back in my life . thought ur really gone for the rest of our life . after 4 years , eu came back telling me eu miss me a lot & hope i can take care of eu like how i do 4 years back . eu left me when i was pregnant . eu left me & ikhlas all alone . seriously , my feelings for eu right now is not as strong as before . eu told me ur not sure if mama & ayah could accept eu back in our family . ur right boy . mama did nagged at me . about whole part of ur body like drawing block , about ur tattoo at the center of ur forehead & below ur left eye , about eu leaving me when i was pregnant . lastly she say she dont mind but ayah ? eu know him right . eu told me how much eu hope ikhlas was a girl . eu want girl but too bad . ikhlas is a boy . still eu say eu want baby girl from me ? wth ! marry me first . who do eu think i am . after meeting eu at cck that night , all i do is cry & eu say i was stupid to cry coz ur back . its not the matter of that , its that eu came at the wrong time . where were eu when me & ur son need eu ? now that his gone , ur back . im not sure if our baby boy is happy or sad to see me back with eu . is he happy for us or is he upset that ur back when his gone . boy , idk . im just so sad that eu came at the wrong time to me . gosh ~ tears feel like rolling down my cheek again . stop talking about boy & ikhlas for now . making me low . sorry to say , i cant love eu like how i love amat . i cant force myself to be with eu when only him in my heart . i just love & need him for now .

whatever it is , his photo will always be at my profile forever like how i love him forever . selagi gambar abang kat profile hawa , selagi tu lah hawa masih cinta , rindu & perlu kan abang dalam hidup hawa .

azreena , lots of patience okey . hope usuk or abie will realise whats love & who really love them whole heartedly .

lisa , hope eu & fiancee will get well together . hope things will settle down soon .

nenek ! imy ! nenek jumpa kan hawa dengan amat tapi nenek tak selamat kan pun hubungan hawa dengan amat . hawa tipu2 amat pun nenek bukan nak buat sesuatu supaya hawa tak tipu lagi . hanya nenek je tahu macam mane nya cinta hawa pada amat . kalau lah nenek boleh buat sesuatu supaya amat boleh baca isi hati hawa kan bagus . hawa harap hawa dengan amat dapat bersatu kembali & hawa harap kita lebih bahagia dari segala nya . hawa hanya mampu sabar & menanti kepulangan amat ke sisi hawa . if he dont , hawa janji dengan nenek , selama nya lah hidup hawa tak kan bernikah dengan sesiapa pun kecuali ahmad hidayat bin zakariah .

nurul told me , jak (right or wrong) nak kenal2 with me since the first day he met me when we went k box with my cousins . his my new abang sedara friend . sorry to whoever eu are , i didnt notice eu & i dont even remember how eu look like .

whatever lah hawa ! what am i mumbling about . i want to sleep . good night abang ! jaga diri & kesihatan ok . hawa masih cinta & sayang kan abang .

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dates not to forget

october 09
~~011009 - childrens day~~
~~031009 - abang bob wedding~~
~~041009 - cik ala open house~~
~~051009 - tante birthday~~
~~061009 - epulKUCING birthday~~
~~081009 - take my iPhone & LG from shop~~
~~101009 - last day at clementi home~~
~~111009 - cik noi place for raya~~
~~141009 - oshin last breath~~
~~151009 - ayah birthday~~
~~271009 - atok birthday~~
~~311009 - halloween at night safari~~

november 09
~~041109 - meet ika at chilis~~ - cancel
~~071009 - team darkstars chalet~~ - cancel
~~081109 - lil yat birthday party~~
~~091109 - lil yat birthday~~
~~141109 - tagged & 125z club gathering~~
~~171109 - cik ala operation~~
~~221109 - left 4 dead with dincine & slak~~
~~291109 - tagged & 125z club gathering~~

december 09
~~021209 - adik birthday~~
~~131209 - welcome back adik~~
~~191209 - tagged & 125z club gathering~~
~~261209 - taggers & 125z club pit~~ - cancel
~~311209 - siloso beach party countdown 2010~~

january 10
~~020110 - keira birthday~~
~~030110 - cousin shafiq wedding~~
~~040110 - bo & labu birthday~~
~~050110 - mamat tears birthday~~
~~070110 - ijalspade & ilut birthday~~
~~080110 - wan anak devil birthday~~
~~100110 - aishah shariff birthday~~

april 10
~~140410 - 1st check-up~~
~~160410 - Taggers Pit~~

may 10
~~050510 - 2nd check-up~~
~~120510 - mama birthday~~
~~180510 - pitbull concert~~
~~220610 - pasir gudang~~
~~300510 - alin's wedding & ilut's engagement~~ - cancel

june 10
~~020610 - joe & kak lin's wedding~~ - cancel

july 10
~~200710 - scan & check baby gender~~

september 10
~~010909 - baby elly birthday~~
~~050910 - mak busu birthday~~
~~060910 - jai (siren) & kak long birthday~~
~~090910 - m i n e & honeylilies birthday~~
~~100910 - Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri~~
~~140910 - saf birthday & scan again~~
~~190910 - zai jepon birthday~~
~~200910 - cik noi birthday~~
~~280910 - jak birthday~~
~~290910 - liana (ex-wife jap) birthday~~

october 10
~~011010 - childrens days~~
~~051010 - tante birthday~~
~~061010 - epulKUCING birthday~~
~~141010 - oshin 1 year away~~
~~151010 - ayah birthday~~
~~271010 - atok birthday~~

november 10
~~171110 - hari raya haji 2010~~
~~171110 - daughter's 1st cry~~
~~181110 - daughter's 1st check up~~
~~211110 - due date~~
~~221110 - daughter's juandice check up~~
~~231110 - urut day 1~~
~~241110 - daughter's juandice check up~~
~~241110 - urut day 2~~
~~241110 - urut day 3~~
~~251110 - urut day 4~~
~~261110 - urut day 5~~
~~291110 - daughter's juandice check up~~

december 10
~~021210 - adik's birthday~~
~~031210 - papa's going on a vacation~~
~~101210 - papa's back from vacation~~
~~161210 - papa's check up~~
~~171210 - daughter's 1 month check up~~
~~291210 - my check up~~
~~311210 - countdown 2011~~

january 11
~~010111 - zurastar wedding~~
~~051111 - nenek 2 years away~~
~~070111 - visit at changi prison~~ - cancel
~~100111 - daughter's circumcision~~
~~110111 - make daughter's passport~~ - cancel
~~110111 - father admitted to hospital~~
~~170111 - make daughter's passport~~

april 11
~~180411 - daughter's check up~~
~~190411 - syafiq left us all~~
~~220411 - afiq's birthday~~

may 11
~~020511 - kak noi's sons chalet~~
~~080511 - mothers' day~~
~~120511 - my beloved mama birthday~~
~~180511 - 1 month of arwah syafiq away~~

june 11
~~160611 - twins birthday~~
~~180611 - om birthday~~
~~240611 - chalet~~
~~250611 - chalet~~
~~260611 - chalet~~
~~290611 - daughter's extra injection~~

july 11
~~060711 - daughter's appointment at KK~~

may 12
~~060711 - daughter's appointment at KK~~

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have been doing lately

☺ life is getting good for me & family
☺ proud to be a hot mummy
☺ full time mother
☺ nenek is always in my everywhere
☺ always been missing nenek
☺ from a girl to a lady
☺ awaiting for someone special
☺ been who i never use to be
☺ thinking of my future
☺ waiting for those special day
☺ loving my angel each & everyday

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if only i can have all this at one go

☻ new hairstyle
☻ new pink laptop
☻ ~~new pink digital camera~~
☻ oil and pimple free face
☻ white pink kr
☻ ~~pink nintendo 3DS~~
☻ pink slim psp
☻ best hp
☻ studio photo shots with family & bf
☻ ~~auntie annes cinnamon sugar pretzel~~
☻ ~~carls jr chcocolate shake malt~~
☻ ~~' dopie ' sandal~~
☻ ~~thick pink sweater with hoodies~~
☻ ~~crumpler sling beg~~
☻ flat tv sreen for my room
☻ ~~gold necklace with my name plated~~
☻ ~~gucci rush perfume~~
☻ 25th birthday chalet
☻ enrol class 3
☻ ~~S$18 - babygirl birth cert~~
☻ ~~S$70 - babygirl passport~~
☻ ~~S$385 - our massage~~
☻ ~~S$55 - babygirl sunat & ear piercing~~
☻ ~~babyjborn hot pink baby carrier~~
☻ any branded pink pram
☻ gold earring for daughter
☻ gold anklet for daughter
☻ gold necklace for daughter

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gain experience in places

♣ snow city
♣ ~~singapore zoo~~
♣ ~~night safari~~
♣ world of sentosa
♣ ~~baju kurong for raya 2008~~
♣ ~~swensens~~
♣ ~~wild wild wet~~
♣ ~~escape theme park~~
♣ batam resort , phuket , bali , sunway lagoon
♣ ~~cycling~~ / roller blading
♣ singapore flyer
♣ ~~marina barrage~~
♣ G Max ride
♣ ice skating
♣ ~~cafe del ma~~
♣ ~~universal studio~~
♣ ~~pasir gudang track~~
♣ port dickson
♣ iFly

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a simple two when - tee six year old;
adores Shopping & her lil precious;
POOH makes her eye goes BLINK BLINK;
loves and wishes to be loved;
ain't one to be ~~taken for granted~~;
tend to be a material girl at times;
a part time SLEEPING BEAUTY;
has a passion for music;
and i BITE;
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Wawa Lee

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